Other times in life, you can be knocked out for the count, you're running on empty and just feel like a bear hibernating in your little cave all winter.
I feel like I'm finally coming out of a three year winter.
It's been a long time coming. I've seen glimpses of my old self at times but nothing like the shift and permanancy I'm feeling now. I think what's been happening over these past three years has been a long process of: pessimism, plateauing and then perseverance. I think maybe I had to fall apart completely to be able to put myself together from the ground up, with better foundations this time.
Everyone has their own foundations, grounding or towers of strength they can lean on. We are the sum of these parts. Have a think... what has formed your foundations in life? What do you do to help ground and support you? And who are the people that have got your back or that you can turn to for help?
I had to rebuild and reassess a lot of what I thought I knew, and I also had to remember a lot of tools and practices that I had forgotten.
My foundation is now firmly dug into the earth with the knowledge and awareness that I can create my own state of positive health and mood. I have to actively participate and take responsibility for the contribution I can make to enhance, or deter my mood. My foundation also relies on the friends and supports that have stuck with me during this winter and who I now know will always be there for me. And my habits, my grounding comes from my intention to work everyday, doing small actions that become daily practises. I've reduced so much processed food, drinking, smoking ciggies, inactivity and cocooning habits from my life these days. I take walks out in nature at least 4-5 times a week if not more. I find I need this reprieve and quiet solitude to reset all the chatter and noise in the background. That moment in stillness where the insects, birds or frogs are all crescendoing in chorus, is a magnificent reset for me.
So I think it's worth noting and reflecting that yeah it's been a pretty hectic and horrible time these past three years. But it is only when we can see where we've come from, that we can appreciate how far we've come.
